Over My Head.........

i think it is really cheesy and way emo to use song lyrics to describe how a person feels... but i am so drained that i can't even put into words how i feel..... so i will let two songs do it for me.

Switchfoot : The Blues

Is this the New Year or just another night?
Is this the new fear or just another fright?
Is this the new tear or just another desperation?
Is this the finger or just another fist?
Is this the kingdom or just a hit n' miss?
A misdirection, most in all this desperation
Is this what they call freedom?
Is this what you call pain?
Is this what they call discontented fame?
It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in When the world caves in When the world caves in
I'm singing this one like a broken piece of glass
From broken arms an' broken noses in the back
Is this the New Year or just another desperation?
You're pushing till you're shovingYou bend until you break
Till you stand on the broken fields where our fathers lay
It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
There's nothing here worth saving,Is no one here at all?
Is there any net left that could break our fall?
It'll be a day like this one
When the sky falls down and the hungry and poor and deserted are found
Are you discontented?
Have you been pushing hard?
Have you been throwing down this broken house of cards?
It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
Is there nothing left now?
Nothing left to sing
Are there any left who hasn't kiss the enemy?
Is this the New Year or just another desperation?
Does justice never find you?
Do the wicked never lose?
Is there any honest song to sing besides these blues?
And nothing is okay
Till the world caves in
Till the world caves in
Till the world caves in

Starfield: Over my head

After the words have all been said
After the songs are sungI realize
I’ve only but just begun
Trying to wrap my mind around
Extravagant love come down
Leaves me undone
Finds me with nothing to say
The reach of Your fame
The power in Your name
Your glory surrounds me
It’s over my head
It’s over my head
The shame of the cross
For all that it cost
This friendship astounds me
It’s over my head It’s over my head
Unquenchable songs and endless praise
A million tongues poised to sing
Could still not convey The worth that Your name deserves
Beauty for ashes Joy for pain
Mercy instead of my blame
Ruins me for more
I’m lost in Your presence, Lord
Hallelujah…
Lost for the words to say
I’m left here in disarray
Waiting for You, waiting on truth
I’ve thrown reason overboard
Knowing that there’s still more
I don’t yet believe, I can’t even perceive
I can’t seem to understand
Can’t seem to find my way
It’s over my head, it’s over my head
Learning this mystery
Trust what I cannot see
It’s over my head, it’s over my head
The wonder of all You’ve made
Foundations Your hands have laid
Bringing me back to my knees, to my knees
I’m lost for the words to say
Lost for another way
Bringing me back to my knees, to my knees
I’m lost for the words to say
Lost for another way
Ruined for anything other than Your love
I’m desperate to know You, Lord
Desperate for what’s in store
Finding my hope in only You, in only You
Take me beyond this door
Lead me to something more
Open my heart up for more of You, more of You

i love Switchfoot ... they always seems to speak what i am feelin....

and this other song i encourage you to download because it is incredible... and it is so much better with the music. It speaks to my soul.

Honestly people who care.... i am desperate and i am at the end of my rope. Its the end of week 6 and i have so much pressure from every direction to make decisons about the fall and i just want to crawl in a hole. I am trying to trust God and let him lead me but its like people are telling me to bear the burden that i am trying to hand over to God. THank God i am a swat next week. peace.